It was 7pm...one hour more to meet her...i went to find jireh..went mac, tok cock. He has some little problem of his own so i didnt really flood him with all my problems.. if i fail later, i'll call him- dat was the deal. 8pm, i went. i waited for her outside kfc for 15mins. if this was being done to mi last time, i'll blow my top. but this time, i didnt. stay calm, waiting with bated breath. she came...we went ate at nydc.. the food there is as good as eating cow's penis. $44 in total but who cares. i tried asking her whether she regret her decision and she jus said no. dat was the answer i hoped for...so i should be happi rite? no.... we went home thereafter. it was then i knew we WILL have problems. See, being in a reationship doesnt mean u hav to spent all ur time with ur partner. She is still 15. frenz are veri impt to her i understand. but i really hope she will know how to balance. She said she will have no time for mi..coz evyday aftersch will go play the fucking ball. its ok..i mean i am not ANGRY abt it..its jus dat i want to go back to the past. she would choose to go out wif mi then her frenz...hey! hey! I AM SELFISH OK! but i noe i need to let her go..i think i XI GUAN dat way le...so now suddenly she becomes this way i feel a little hurt..so i giv her some time to decide ba.. at nite, she would used to call mi and chat, msg mi b4 i can say ''ferrero rocher''. i really miss the past. i didnt treasure dat period time and its now gone forever. she will no longer call mi and chat. no longer msg mi and ask mi how m i. no longer say 'i love u'. this is happening even b4 we broke up. i really hurt her during june. it was then after she no longer the way she was in the past.. if i could turn back time, i....will not. haha. cos i learnt something valuable during this 12days. i WANT to treat her better then last time. i hav a chance now. BUT I NEED HER TIME. see tmr how ba...i go sleep le.
Special thanks:
Jun yuan: thanks for all u did these 12days. even though u choose to go out wif ur fren, i can understand ur position. owe u prata. one egg one kosong
Daryll: thanks for accompany mi when i evytime go ur house downstairs and when im bored. u were always the first one to ask mi out. haha. thanks dude. i treat u kopi next time.
Yon Lee: u are the onli person who can and had mend my heart and keep mi standing strong. Keep ur cheerful attitude..its great to be around u..really made mi feel ALOT better. thanks (3x)
Shermin: thanks for ur advice. it really sound like a pro. the talk we had that night really made mi view relationship in a different manner. thanks alot. i still owe u a sushi treat and one veri big. dun wry, im willing to spend. haha...
Jireh: thanks for the cap fare dat day. although its a wasted trip but i really needed it at that time. u are currently having some problems of ur own, but still took out some time for mi. thanks. treat u drink next time.
Zhi Li: i noe u urself is having a relationship problem oso but thanks for advicing mi on my problem. for ur problem, all i can say is- it takes alot of different element together to be in a relationship. if one missing, it aint complete.
Kenny: waa boi! got gf liao ar!...haha tks for advising mi when im desperate...thanks for teaching mi how to sms..haha... remember to treat ur gf well...dun regret like i did. i can still remember im treating u something...jus cant remember wad...wahahaha...
Lionel: hey boi..thanks for...erm...i cant remember le...wahahaha... k lar u did adviced mi abit..so thank u. tonight is ur night.
Amin: thanks for ur concern..i really feel better after u said ''goodluck'' after the IT test. although i failed to win her back dat day, i wont forget...ur drawing is top class!
Benson: BOY!!! STUDY HARD HOR!!! dun oops le...i still need u bro! haha..dun wry im ok le..
Jia Qi, Meisy, Lee Ling, Zhi Hui, Mandy, Elizer: thanks for chatting with mi on msn.. hope i didnt bother u all too much..u guys made my lonliness dissappered. thank u.
thanks alot u guys! ive gotten her back! although theres still some problems to be fixed, but i'll treasure her even more. i've learnt alot during the breakup and now a better man.
Candice, thanks for giving mi this chance.