Thursday, August 24, 2006 @ 3:03 pm
dun call gang wack mi pls...

Cant believe im with an ah lian together...aftersch always got dai zi wan...go kallang 'settle'. haha. my foot. dun quote anymore...later she asked her gang to beat mi up...damn scared.
anyway, i still cant believe i so guai. stay at home playing suikoden 5. still remember when i was pri5 to sec1 dat period. i used to get into games. those rpg like final fantasy and suikoden, my life would revolve around them. i could play the whole day and my butt jus sticked to the chair. its different now...those feelings are gone. i was once carefree and trouble free, accept when i gotten 0 mark for my 'ting xie' (chinese spelling). i would put my ting xie book at the lost and found, which then after some idiot would return to mi saying they found it there. haha.
u noe wad, having a girlfren is like losing a part of myself. its like theres two person in ur life. nowadays when i play game, i would constantly think of her. wonder wad she doing and stuff like dat. she has gotten into my life too deep. its hard to get rid, but sometimes i think dats the best solution. we broke up dat time i felt so lifeless. wad to do?? how?? now im with her we still hav many problems. ppl said its normal but time really changed us. i could say i loved her more then past year but dat no longer applies to her. she changed alot, alot. wad can i do? being with her, honestly, hurts smetimes. when she's with her frenz she totally forget abt mi. wad can i do? get on with my life? its like telling a pig: "heyy u, go slim down!"
life sux. my life sux more. one mus hav desire to live. wad i hav? problems, troubles, and fusturations. still cant believe a girl once so guai turned out to be an ah lian.
mi? i wont, dun wry...cos im all abt making $$$. no time getting involve in those childish 'dai zi'. hope she will learn...but not veri hopeful..i dun blame her though...cos young ppl dunno how to think. sori for shooting u*. u forced mi. if i dun i will get crazy. im jus penning down my thoughts. sorry.