My heart stopped. my world dropped. words cant describe how i feel. i try not to talk abt my relationship here. this afternoon was boring. one of the most boring afternoon i had since my time on earth. see, i tried to play games, read books, listen music and shoot birds. non worked. so i decided not to do anything. i sat down there rocking my chair like a contented old man. went for training at 6pm. it was fun, mind adsorbing and eventful. there are onli 3 other people beside mi who had worked at the last roadshow. the rest all new de, all i dunno. didnt really bother to chat with the guy beside mi...as my mind was filled with wad happened between us*. nuthing much to post..so i end early.
She wanted break. yes, i was far too possessive. far too selfish. yes, i shouldnt waste our* time. u shouldnt give up ur happiness to fit mine. i said i would change. but i guess i didnt do well enough. i need time. all i need is time. the feelings faded. too bad. i dunno wad am i related to her now. jus clinging on to the little hope ive got. she's a nice girl. i dun deserve to be with her. im saying all these is not for u to pity mi. its from my heart. im jus a possessive, selfish, immature boyfren. its all my fault.


Sorry seems to be the hardest word. but im saying it far too often. it is needed. im sorry.