Our love is dead. as much as i dun wan to admit it, all is gone. its amazing how fast a person can change. i msg her a page long question. she jus replied with an one word answer. i called her asked her alot of things. she jus replied with an ''orh''. i cant stand this anymore. but still, i do not hav the courage to be angry with her anymore. when im wrong, i say sorri. when she's wrong (although dat to her will never happen), i oso say sorri. if not later i will rev another msg telling mi breaking up is better. ''let mi go''..then wad, ''dun waste our time'' and even ''give mi the freedom i always wanted." its scary, thinking of it, how things changed. one thing i do not hav-- freedom from fear. i understand she nowadays veri fann. she is always about her shoe, her bag, her skirt, her mirror and even her hair. one word sums all-- MONEY. but to me, im all about her. i jus hope she will think of mi even if for one second. fat hope. wads the use of having her but not her heart?

I went CM house downstairs in the afternoon looking for job in the newspaper. amazing respond. buzy day tmr as we will be going for interviews. also helped her to ask quite alot and found some. then guess wad, she dun wann to...saying theres no one to work in kfc. haiz...i think she is going to work there til 80years old. haiz...dun tok so much later she read liao angry again.
Ask u. wad do u think abt modeling? not mi of cos..but for her. the catch? pay a freaking $200 for the wad...wad...portfolio. not dat im against it...but u really think its plausible? dats her decision. i better dun say anything... think i jus post sumthing normal...

Took my pay for the giftcard roadshow..$172 for three days..not DAT bad. went to play pool with leslie and haha..its like mike tyson vs mr bean. out shopping with her along orchard. the path to her house was a long one. but from wad she said, i can tell sumthing abt us is wrong. she mentioned abt how her feelings has faded since june. it struck mi like a dagger. and oso how a faggot kept pestering her. wait...wait...pestering? isnt dat mi?...wad the hell..

The night is long..the owls are gone. the day is near...to mi its real... HAHA WTF am i toking.. haiz...i really dunno wad to do with her anymore...ive tried..but im now jus dragging day by day. hoping to find my lostlove. a love given by her. a dead love.

Wad can i do to make you love mi once more? Tell mi. i need to noe.