Wad a day it has been.
full of crap, full of shit.

9.15 i chiong all the way to sch. confirm late de. but...haiz...i jus wan to be early for a day. jus once can? nope, no chance.
gerald, the pool freak, saw mii on my way to sch. he was oso late. tok alot during the journey.
he has no galfren for the past 18 years of his life. wad he said made sense.

having a girlfren is the same as burning ur own money.
u hav to spent twice as much for ur lunch/dinner, and wait till 12am when u went back home then u can start ur ff12.
somemore our age is all abt face. not pretty or handsome and u are out.
most relationship during our age last, on average, abt a year.
a tragical fact.
how true.. then we mummbled abt pool for the rest of the journey.

Late got ECT. i realised dat i still hav ALOT of tutorial haven done. not dat i dun care, but the truth always gone unnotice. IDEA was worst. the lesson is as boring as watching files tranferring. whenever jessic tan said those who haven summited the work, her eyes would ALWAYS be on mii. how sad...BS got extra lesson. bla bla bla... bla bla bla bla.....

getting bored?
good. mii too.

lets tok abt something else.
(jianwen, tok abt wad?)
this is my blog, so tok abt mii lar!
(Oo...okok)

-The journey of my life so far-
nope, its not boring. jus read.

getting rid of her (my ex) is perhaps, though unseen, one of the best decision of my life.
if u hold hands with someone u dun really like anymore, its like pulling around a dog for drug test.
yes, im sad. im down, and im out till even now. but i sometimes really wonder wads the purpose of a relationship.
lets tok abt puppy love, relationships during my age.
to mii, i need someone to 'report' my life. its funny though...cos i think im used to it. wad i do i want it to be known. i dun wish to knock one little boy into the swimming pool, and noones noes. its like theres no one to share my joy, and sorrow.
its oso abt a sense of belonging. we all wanted to be 'in'. to be felt wanted. to feel getting in.
but my problem is dat i wanted so badly, dat it even seemed abit 'desprate' to some.

mii and the past her had problems bigger then our age could handle. the love we had felt, at dat time, geniune. but lets face it. if one relationship can be forgotten and get over so easily, its not a sincere one.

im aready getting used to it.
and i'll continue to do so.
therefore, i'll declare her* (not my ex!) dead.
the third person who died in my heart 'rendezvous' list.

i need breathing space.
i dun wish to keep getting into all these now.
i jus wan to continue and get use to my new life.
unless....
theres this someone....
who is willing.
i'll rock the boat, if u sit on one.

keep u in suspension. this is not another jaap stam's 'tell all' book.

to be continue...