Un-loved.
Re-loved.
Be-loved.
Im still at the initial stage.

I dun believe in god. i believe in fate.
its funny though,
when u are at a high-end, u tend to adsorb everyting like gravity.
when u hit rock bottom, u swear and curse everything under the sun.
life to mi, is like a statistic chart.
it goes up and down.
my life is like the situation during september 11.
flying high as an eagle, and collaped to a wooden boat as fast as michael jackon does the moon walk.
economy may slowly prosper up, but trust mii, life's aint parallel.
if i were to die and look at my life chart, this point of my being should be in red.
back to september 11.
seeing how the livings became dead at dat day itself, it draws mii alot of emotions and thoughts.
imagine. jus imagine. u were an important figure in ur company.
u have a happy family, a loving wife, and adorable kids.
u set to go to the uppermost floor in the world trade centre for a meeting dat could most probably set ur career soaring high.
in a moment, u were bounded by fires and last resort forced u to jump out of the building.
ur life ends there.
u ask urself.
it is a pity?
it is fate?
anyway, u cant change fate, and i dun believe in the 'ripple effect' my teacher used to tell mi.
yes, one person could make a ripple but u nid a team to cause a tsunami.

Oops!..sori for the wrong turn, let me go back to the point.

Fate has been playing with me.
when i nid food, it gave mi water.
when i nid water, it gave mi an empty cup.
btw, the half-full and half-empty (bottle) logic is totally ridiculous.
thinking the half-empty way doesnt mean u are pessimistic.
it shows u are hungry for more, and hav the desire to improve.
my live is as simple as a lamp.
people fight for a living.
i fight for a lifestyle of another being.
dat may be not wad i want.
but dats how i seemed to be doing.

Its hard being a teenager.
so much expectations, so much exceptions.
till i grow old and look back,
im down and out.
kicked by faces of old,
left alone in the dark, crying and screaming but honestly,
do u even care?

Peers are fools.
goons are boons.
my life aint cool.
it'll end real soon.