*This is an emo post*
*Can i dun be so emo?*
*NO*

Hey guys...
remember me..?
its been so long since i blog
(err.. jus yst?)
nooo...i mean... really, REALLY blog..
u know,
as in toking abt my life,
how has i been,
wad i really really did,
my feelings and all dat stuff,
instead of jus copying and paste some stupid bulletins from friendster.

Been a week or more...
since the mid-month,
people look my reassuring faces that everything is ok, fine...u know, cool and stuff..
haa...
wad a freaking hell of a month!
or should i say,
half a month.

Ive noticed my counter..
20 odd people pass by everyday..
looking at this blog..
but, nth much to offer, yea..

Ok,
my exams are jus over..
u see..
its been a terrifying process dat happens every couple of months..
hasn't been so scary till i repeated two modules.
spending half more year in dat sch.
dat freaking sch which takes more then a thousand bucks every half a year,
and build lamppost in the middle of nowhere.
study is hell, i assure u.
if u are like me,
who always think abt making more money,
watching wad movie,
getting wad new gadgets,
and one who needs to work to survive,
i tell u...
ask me to study about how a UPVC handrail may corrode,
i tell u...
i rather go and lie beside Suharto right now.

I spent countless nights studying
most is the night before the exam.
it stressed me out,
it totally stressed me out..
especially when u have this feeling that if u fail one more time,
your life is totally doom.
People have this feeling dat I wun even bother abt studying,
given my track records of rock and roll and live life like theres no tomorrow.
yes, its...partially true...
but one, no matter how old or young u are,
has a future,
and u nid to think abt ur own future.
at least dats wd i believe in.
no one can define wad u're gonna do..
its your own doing..
i mean, if u choose to waste ur youth at pubs or coffeeshops sorrowing abt BGR problems,
so be it.
one may say u,
but no one can really stops u.
For myself,
i nid to be independent, seriously..
i know my situation best.
i know my family, and how things will start to change in the near future.

Half a month,
starting from 18th.
i was drinking every alternate days..
as if alcohol is free.
it didnt turn out well..
enduring those headache and hang-over and still woke up and work in the morning.
stress...
Sat in a coffeeshop a few days back.
was with a fren..
reminiscing...
and lo and behold,
we are turing 20 this year.
its scary...
i mean, do i look 20?
(er..no)
ya, NO!
i still look and behave like an average 17 year old with $50 in the bank!!
its true, anyway,
my spending habits got the better of me..
how time flies..
from a short-hair guy who thought people he love will forever stick with him,
to a golden monkey who still thinks the same way.
Thinking abt it,
yes...ive wasted the whole of my 18th year old.
although i did some stupid and fruitful things back then,
but non were rewarded it seems..
a year of pretense happiness,
a year of junk.

Studies is jus a small part of life,
a sec sch fren once told me...
i used to laugh at it initially...
but..it do make some sense.

Exam finally over..
I now have time for me to sit down and look at the hairdryer..
isnt it cool...
where u have the time to sit down and type all these things im typing now..
ahahahas...
but still alot things to worry abt..
some u wont even will expect.
=x

Do i have a future?
Definitely.
Is it looking good?
Nope.

Smart dun make u cool.
Being street smart doesn't get me anywhere.
In time,
maybe my talent will show..
(u got talent de meh =.=")
err...i dunno..
hahas..

Wen,
peace out.